im in "the mill"! :)
Sooo... I have been working a lot lately. Everyday at 8:30 am! I need to make more money or I need cheaper rent. Times are getting rough.
On that note, I might have a road bike. I am going to check it out tomorrow morning on my way to work. I am super excited! The only problem is Kim wants $70 for the bike... and that is expensive! I guess I can do it if I do not spend any more money on misc stuff but it is just hard to fork over that amount all at once. I can always sell my bike for about $40 or $50 (that is thinking positively). I hope it all works out! :) I am going to check out the bike tomorrow morning before work.
My sister goes to the doctor tomorrow. I am so scared.
Everything else has been the same. Im sitting in my kitchen. I dont think I sit here enough. I'm working on the RSU zine! I cannot wait until Thursday. :)
Aggghhhh!
=D
i dont want to be in pilsen. id rather be in cal city with my family or in madison with my boyfriend. i came home to my apartment and didnt feel 100% happy here. my mom didnt want me to leave home and i actually felt really bad when i did.
i work till thursday and then i get to go see my boyfriend for a week. school starts soon.
i can't get back to sleep. its almost 6 am.
at one point in the night i lost my phone. i imagined myself like the princess in the princess and the pea. the story is about a girl who is proven to be a princess after sleeping on about a gazillion mattresses stacked on top of eachother and still feels a pea that was placed under the first one. i thought i would be the same way but when i quickly pulled my cover over my body my phone hit me in the face.
tonight is not my night.
and now... post secrets.
i realized today that the only reason i continue come back to cal city is for family. my parents, my siblings, and my cousins mean the world to me.
choucha is in a "decretive tin" (aka ugly dollar store flower tin) inside the cabinet in our kitchen. i keep walking around carefully to avoid piss on the floor and closing doors behind me out of habit. when i realize she isn't here anymore i feel foolish. i miss that little dog.
my room at home is finally clean. i am giving a ton of clothes to my neighbors granddaughter because she doesnt get a lot at home.
my bed looks comfortable and i cant wait to fall asleep in it.
i feel happy when i am home. :)
night.
summer is coming near its end. i am going to try hard to make the best of it. there is so much that i want to do but i lack the time and sometimes the energy and usually the money needed to do those things. why can't i just fast forward to next summer?
i woke up this morning to an empty bed. tonight ill go to sleep in an empty bed. again, why can't i just fast forward to next summer?
there is a wonderful breeze coming through my window. i can't get enough.
day one and i have kept up with all my EOTS goals. :)
Edit: Little Debbie and I had a run-in in the kitchen. What was lost in the scuffle? A swiss cake roll and a brownie. Whoops.
I love lists. The end of story.
- get fit, love my body.
- eat way healthier
- organize rsu
- lock away my credit card!
- read read reeeaaad
- be studious when necessary
- see my bf as much as possible!
- talk to my folks and sister more often
- love life, create more lists, create more goals!!!
:)
he left and i am sad and i don't know what else to write.
sighs.
i can't wait till the 15th!
... a more peppy post later, i promise!
we wanted to be together longer. he said, "lets stop time"
for a split second i swear no one moved.
Adam leaves tomorrow.
'Nuff said.
:(
